Wednesday, November 29, 2006: words for thought
i really dont know what to say anymore. i'm irritated, annoyed and everything else i know i shouldnt be.
today was a pretty interesting day. went to zong's house and followed him to the vet's, and then slacked in his house until it was time to meet wesley and sarah. some evangelists from this christian center visited his house while i was there, and it was rather strange to me cos they never really explained the real reason for their appearance and i was taken aback. we were talking about evangelism, and the truth of the bible, and zong was asking them how do we share with those who get turned off from christianity by the "un-holy" way we act sometimes. i guess its pretty true.
matthew 7: 15-23
“Beware of false prophets who come disguised as harmless sheep but are really vicious wolves.
You can identify them by their fruit, that is, by the way they act. Can you pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. A good tree can’t produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can’t produce good fruit. So every tree that does not produce good fruit is chopped down and thrown into the fire.
Yes, just as you can identify a tree by its fruit, so you can identify people by their actions.“Not everyone who calls out to me, ‘Lord! Lord!’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Only those who actually do the will of my Father in heaven will enter. On judgment day many will say to me, ‘Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in your name and performed many miracles in your name.’
But I will reply, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God’s laws.’so it really made sense, and i was trying to apply it to my life. do i ever really give a second thought about my actions and do what i do examplify holy living? is it right for me to just sweep everything off with a simple "God will forgive me because He is a gracious God and all men are fallen anyway." statement? i guess not, cos the immediate rebuttal i thought for my statement was that i would have to answer for my actions and attitude on judgement day.
and this was all well planned and thought up before i left zong's house this morning to meet sarah and wesley. then at caroling i let my pissed-ness get the better of me. how hypocritical of me to say one thing and do another. i guess after all that i've thought through today, nothing has really sunk in, and whats more, in the house of God! ): i guess, living as God's chosen people, as disciples of God and as reflectors of God's name, its not easy for me. thats why, "small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." matt 7:14
but everything's slightly better now. just slightly. i still have opinions i want to voice out, before my chest gets too heavy laden with stuff that i feel i should say but dont have the courage to air these. all in God's time. i just pray that what i say wouldnt be taken too lightly, and also not too seriously either, because first and foremost, as a friend, it is my previlege to share my feelings and opinions, to offer aid when needed and secondly, its ultimately not me who makes the decision for my friend, i'm only there to offer my view.
i also want to thank God for other friends who make me feel better about myself, even though i'm feeling rather mixed up inside. oh well (:
on a lighter note,
sarah, zong, wesley and i went to marina sq to eat lunch at yuki and yaki. HEEHEE. it was so good! hahah, its like seoul garden style. and then they have ice cream too. (: so we had like a 3 hour lunch and lots of laughs cos wesley has such a small stomach, and the stuck ice cream in the teppenyaki plate.. :P it was fun.
and after caroling raymond drove past and with huiling, deanne and edward in the car, and they offered me a lift to somewhere. then me and edward took a bus home. it was pretty cool talking to and getting to know him cos i dont really know him. so that was nice.
tmr is going to be a long day, ending with dinner with the study group.
precamp starts on friday.
and i'll be mia for 5 whole days, cos i'm at camp!
(:
a shout of praise.
11:12 PM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006: monotonous rituals
i've been filling my time with greys anatomy, camp stuff and msn games. so thats why i havent been blogging much. ah well.
4 days left till precamp. i'm pretty excited! (: my group's going to be the most awesomest group ever. i hope. hahah. (: i've got a cool agl, aka abraham, to co lead with me. i must start thinking of strategies! and i hope i dont get cold feet during camp and suddenly become very shy with my campers. (although the chances of that happening are pretty slim. i think i talk too much but oh well. there is a possiblity!) but anyways. (: i like my group.
hmm.
dont really have a mood to blog anymore. i feel like watching greys. (:
and ooh! i'm going start working at venezia! i think. its not confirmed! dunno which branch either. but yah. sounds like fun! and its going to be heaps fun i hope! heehee. ice cream parlours are the best.
caroling's getting better! we're sounding quite good! a few hiccups here and there, but all in all, its all about serving God through our singing, so as long as we've tried our very best and have a cheerful heart its all good. (:
need to think of stuff for winter camp too. theme verse, theme talks, publicity stints. lots of things to settle too. i hope all these things will come in place smoothly!
cant wait for andrea and nat to come home so we can hang out. i want to take more neoprints! nobody wants to take with me. nobody wants to take neoprints with me cos its ex, but i dont get to take them in perth! so i must take all i can before i go back.
man. i'm going back to perth and staying there for a WHOLE year.wonder how that will feel like; being away from home for so long. but i guess its better for me anyway. (:
okay i shall go watch greys now.
wheee. (:
a shout of praise.
12:23 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006: i'm a joyful servant
today was my no 2 practice for carolling, and i felt pretty shaken today. after what seemed like an awesome first prac, i thought things were going to get better, but in fact, it got alot worse. our singing were like offkey, slightly flat. i was feeling pretty low, especially since all the hymns that we practised on monday werent that great, and its not as if i'm that great a singer myself. my tendency to go offkey is i think greater than an average person. but i'm pretty thankful that i have cheryl in my alto section.
cheryl's the sunday school tcher in charge of the whole caroling event this year, and she told me today that she was really glad that i could help out with the alto section, cos there wasnt really anyone else. cheryl also helps loads, cos i'm really crap at sight singing so she helps by singing the RIGHT tune and note. yeah. after her encouragement today i felt better, not that great cos after all my singing wasnt fantastic or anything, but good enough to feel good about myself and that i should be joyful in serving the Lord. i think, without encouragement, people wont function as well as they would with encouragement. like, if it was me, i would want to be encouraged because that makes me feel better and gives me more perseverance to complete the job. i guess maybe its because i regard how other people think of me more important than what i feel, so it feels heaps better when someone believes in me. everyone needs some encouragement, everyone needs some one to believe in them. even if they cant sing. like me.
(read Ecclesiastes 4) after all, we are all part of the body of Christ. we need to spur each other on to press forward as a team, as one body. thank you claire also for your encouragement (:
so anyway, other than caroling, i helped logistics pack the prizes for camp. (:
the prizes looks good and yummy! (: and we made it pretty fair so no one feels left out. haha. today was a pretty eventful day i think.
a shout of praise.
10:16 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006: wit-less
i think i've given up trying to think of something witty to say every post, so i shall just resort to recounting the day's events from now on, unless i have something smart to say, so i can still look like a pretty clever blogger. HAHA.
well. camp prep is getting exciting! today claire, bang, minf, quek and i went to get prizes for games and paper plates and cups for F&B so it was a pretty eventful day. we ended up carry huge red plastic bags cos we had heaps of stuff, and i ended up carry a pretty huge one, so i looked a little like, to quote claire, santa claus. wonderful i tell you. what an image. so yes, we ended taking a taxi back to church to dump the stuff in the sunday sch teacher's resource room and then went home. tmr i'm helping quek out with games trial, and on thurs i'm help bang and minf with log stuff. (: so cool. i feel useful now. it was pretty sad before cos i thought i couldnt really help out with camp except for like gl/agl stuff, but now it seems like i have more ways to serve so that's pretty good, and i'm happy.
apparently i'm going running tmr with eunice, and i really dont want to cos i'm feeling uber lazy right now. plus, singapore's the epitome of humid weather. oh how i wish we had perth's weather right now. blue skies for miles and miles and nice cool breezes blowing at you so the temperature is just nice even if it is a hot day, and where rain lasts for only a split second, and doesnt make the grass and paths muddy. singapore weather sucks now. its raining half the time. but its good weather for staying indoors. (: stay indoors and SLEEP. (: HAHAHAHA. sounds good to me. i hope it rains tmr. i hope it rains when we're supposed to go running. (but please dont let it rain during games trial)
carolling tmr again! sounds like fun. hahahha. get to make a fool of myself again, but like i said, i'm pretty happy with my altos. (:
so right now, life IS pretty sunny, despite the rainy weather. i think i'm just happy exams are over. finally over. and i'm free as a lark. wahhaah. whats with the words today man. power vocab. vunderfull.
a shout of praise.
10:09 PM
Monday, November 20, 2006: i'm home!!
okay so i wasnt particularly excited leaving perth, i mean, its like leaving perth, st marys and the friends i've made this year behind. its so sad... ): but i guess its a new start after today. (: i have to stop looking back and start looking forward.
esther sent me and jean (her housemate) to the airport today, so qiao, our flights are on the same day, and on the same plane. her brother also was with us. and we met joshua tan at the airport, was pretty cool to see so many people going home. plane ride was pretty terrible, especially the landing bit. it was raining in sg, and the flight was getting a tad bumpy, and i got motion sick. was AWFUL alright. :S
went to meet claire and minf for dinner right after at adam rd hwker ctr, and then went for carolling prac after that. was a pretty good sesh, i think! not bad for a first try of leading the altos. :P my altos helped me out ALOT. hahaha, i must admit, i'm not a pretty good leader when it comes to singing cos i can go off key pretty easily, especially when we're singing as a group in different parts. sigh, you can imagine, it was pretty terrible, cos i sing wrong notes sometimes, but my altos were pretty cool about it, and we managed to pull through. (: well done altos! hahaha.
so much gossip in church! hahaha, so many people are getting "attached".. sigh, its not funny. hahahaha. oh well. (: i missed out on the good goss! me and sarah are like the only single ones left, i swear. hahhaa, so like we're going out now. HAHA. so funny, we decided today. :P
going shopping with minf and claire tmr for camp stuff, prizes i think. should be fun. (: i hope. i think james and ken are coming to help us carry stuff as well. HAHA, i'm so lazy.
i missed out on winter camp meeting 1 today! i need to know what happened! so whoever reads this please tell me what happened! lol, i'm going to copy games from ss combined camp. HAHA. i'm how unoriginal LAH! :/ OH well, not like anyone's going to be playing those games anyway. HAHA. so :P
a shout of praise.
11:01 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006: my latest crush
omg, was reading claire's blog and i saw clay aiken's picture, so i remembered about the japanese guys that me and sheryl are so crazy about now, and also hence my decision to learn jap next year in uni. HAHA, its all sheryl's fault, introducing me to all these japanese stuff. :S all YOUR FAULT! you baka nechan, hmpfh. but oh well. i still love you anyway. (:
nishikido ryo! (: he's from 2 japanese pop groups. something with an 8 in it and NEWS. he's so CUTE. except for his big nose, but other than that i think he's so HOT.
okay there's still another one called koike teppei from this other group called WaT and he looks like a girl but he's really really cute but i cant put his picture up cos the picture thingy doesnt seem to be working so nevermind.
AHHH~~~~ kawaiiiiiiiiii!!
a shout of praise.
4:33 PM
going home tomorrow morning..
sounds good.
sounds terrible.
i dont know.
):
i want to go home to help out for camp and carolling,
but
i also want to stay here to stay in the BH for like the last few days till like school is officially out.
):
i feel so sad that i have to leave.
oh well.
(:
i should be happy.
anyway, stop complaining kristi.
so, i've been in the BH doing nothing but slacking and sleeping and moaning and groaning and packing and doing.. nothing. hahha.
so lets see,
friday - packed a little, watched some jap drama and then came out to throw a surprise party for esther and then had dinner together.. we got skirts for esther! she NEVER wears skirts OR dresses. how sad right? so she got skirts from us PLUS she had to parade in her new clothes in front of us. so funny. :) jon was giving commentary on esther's mini "fashion parade". so hilarious i tell you. and then when we were eating, nat called, and it was hell funny.
(phone vibrates SOFTLY on floor far away)
will: someone's phone is ringing.
(my phone rings)
everyone: WOAH, will! how you know ah.
(i pick up my phone)
nat: kristi! guess what, arthur asked me to go karaoke-ing with him on sunday! can you come please...
me: HUH. arthur? errrrr. errrrr. must i? ... .... ummm. who's going? is joel going?
nat: i dont know.. but can you come please???
kristi: but i dont want to go if arthur is going!
(everyone turns to look at me:"who's arthur?". i glare with evil eyes. everyone cracks up)
nat: i know but pleasepleaseplease, i want to go karaoke-ing. who're you with? why is everyone laughing?
kristi: err err. i cant go anyway, no money. sorry nat.
(conversation continues but not interesting anymore.)
lol, and so i'm here at esther's house today, not going karaokeing with nat and arthur. sorry nat, dont have the money to go.
so the moral of that story is that i ended up getting mercilessly teased by the OCF people about the "mysterious" arthur and joel. damn.
anyway. that is beside the story. the story is that it was esther's birthday and we made her wear skirts. end of story.
sat.
spent it watching hana yori dango (jap version of liu xing hua yuan) with sheryl jeannie and mei AND we finished watching it. HAHA, it was only 9 episodes anyway. did some laundry also, like the final bits. talked to everyone a little here and there. said bye to people. ): i feel so sad that i'm leaving BH life! :( i'm going to miss everyone, the year 12s, the housies, the year 10s, hannah (jeannie's roommate) the indonesians, and especially jeannie. i'm going to miss
being woken up at 7.15 by jeannie every schoolday morning to have breakfast. bumbling off to the toilet to brush my teeth and look at my pimples and groan. having a buffet breakfast every morning: toast with nutella, toast with vegemite and butter, special K mixed with nutrigrain topped with yoghurt and canned peaches on the side, or nutrigrain and raisin bran with yoghurt. and my gosh, pineapple juice, orange/mango juice, apple/blackcurrant juice. and in winter, pancakes with maple syrup, eggs (even if its the powder eggs), hashbrowns, muffins. mmm. rushing to my room to finish my leftover homework before school starts.
walk over to school at 830 to find april and esh (they usually come first) and hug them good morning. then we see ankita, lisa, amanda, nat, shuyi, andrea, dee. get our books and kita, andrea and i go for link together when the first bell goes. stop at the labs and when the second bell goes, andrea goes "second bell" kita says "oh well!" and we laugh and split for link.
applic: dee, kita and i sit in the front row, and i usually have my moods, when i feel hardworking i pay really close attention and i dont talk. and thats usually after i get a bad grade or when i feel sleepy. when i feel lazy, (thats when i get a good result or feel hyper) talk to dee and kita about rubbish. hahha. watheiqa is always whining and steph's always trying to calm her down, caitlyn's always making funny comments, megs, tashy and rehana is always confused about some really horrible question.. really fun class. i bet miss white loves our class the best. (:
chem: andrea and amanda ALWAYS hog mrs tyson, asking her random questions.. okay maybe not random. steph and jenna always talking about their friendship group, dee and sag are ALWAYS laughing, or colouring in the colouring book that steph and jenna gave them, when andrea's not talking to mrs tyson, she sits with valeria and they're probably discussing about communism or mr starcevich (i swear, they must be in love with him, otherwise they wouldnt frantically deny it or always drawing random pictures of him AND mr cody.) then there's me and rehana in front, always being the good girls listening to mrs tyson. :D
english: there's too many people to name in this class, but i must give special mention to kimmy and speth, my fellow boarders. (: they sit on either side of me, and i must say, they really made english a less scary class. english is the ONLY class where i DONT have anyone from my friendship group in it with me, so it was a really traumatic experience. kimmy and speth made it so much better and i'm really happy that i had them (: and i really like mrs jefferson. she's really scary when she scolds people. i remember the time when i was playing with my graphics and then it beeped. she knew it was me, but she assumed that i was texting someone so she almost confiscated my hp which happened to be with me that day. was so scared that my phone would be confiscated that i almost cried. :S from then on i kept my distance. but she's been pretty nice, especially after i wrote so many essays for practice for mocks and TEE. haha
econs: ahh. i love this class too. its so small. mrs casserly is THE BEST too. (: she was always so nice to me. i never learnt econs b4, and i remember on my first test, i didnt do too well, i got a mark somewhere in the 60s and then i felt so disappointed, and i was so sure that my mom would scold me. mrs casserly encouraged me and said itwasnt such a bad mark for a beginner and i did better than some other people. i felt better after that. she's really very nice (: and she explain things really well. so i was pretty glad that i got her for my econs teacher and the best econs class too. i had so many clever economists in my class too. michelle, amanda, alicia and ellie are like, crazy. they're always talking about the economy and asking questions about everyday problems, not just from the tb, so i was pretty happy to be in their class cos i get tips from them.. HAHAHA. :D
calc: oh this has to be THE FAVOURITE. no not the subject silly, the friends, the class! :D this is the CRAZIEST class ever. we always make so much noise that the GnT class next door cant listen to miss white (who is their teacher) and then mrs taylor (who is our teacher) has to shush us and make sure we listen. mrs taylor. hooboy, she talks like a bullet train and she's always so fast. :S can never really understand what she's talking about, but we always manage, some how. haha. oh i love my calc class. andrea and valeria again, talking about mr starcevich and mr cody, me and dee always trying so hard to work in the noise that we give up and end up making noise ourself. sag, always talking to herself. megs, patricia and shuyi, the most hardworking of the lot, and xiao and lisa, always exclaiming in chinese. HAHA, its really funny, cos everyone in my class is asian except valeria, and most of us understand chinese so we always laugh with xiao and lisa, but poor mrs taylor, always gets so confused. haha, so i guess maybe she takes revenge by talking even faster.
recess, lunch: this has got to be my favourite period. :P i bet everyone know why. :P lazing in the sun, pinching everyone's food. especially andrea's, since she leaves practically all her food untouched, what a waste! think of all the hungry children in africa! so i eat for her. hahha. beats make your own roll from the BH anyway. heehee.
ahh. school. i love school. (:
so sad the year's coming to an end!
nvm, new beginning next year, must learn to stop looking back and start to look forward! (: you have a long way to go kristi. (:
KAMPATEIIII!
a shout of praise.
2:54 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006: morning blues
HAHAHAHA, i still cant get over the fact that there isnt going to be another day of high school in my entire life. i guess i feel pretty good but i feel sad too. ): no more maroon uniforms. its quite sad actually. blah.
Was chem yesterday, i guess it was pretty okay.. all the questions were pretty long and you had to do a lot of thinking. oh well. anyway, it was also nat's birthday and andrea nat dee and i went out to celebrate her birthday and the end of exams. went to the city, got lunch at taka's and then walked around for abit, went to valleygirl in the city and i saw heaps of gorgeous dresses and i nearly fainted. hahhaha, the summer dresses are so PRETTY.i only bought one though. ): then we decided to go to harbourtown and we shopped like crazy there too. gosh you can buy so much there for so little. (: i feel really happy. its like my shopping paradise. :D had dinner with her family and then her mom dropped dee home, and i'm staying over at nat's. lol. she's still sleeping. you are such a pig nat. haha. we watched ever after last night and talked till pretty late at night. i think we finally slept at like 2 am or something. hahaha. yeah, and i'm awake at 7. pretty amazing huh? i think i have some in built alarm clock or something, after being woken up jeannie at 7.15 everyday, i wake up at 7.15 now, stupid. and all i want to do is go back to sleep. ): but oh well. i cant so i should do something right? thats why i'm blogging now. LOL. :P
so today we're going ice skating at cockburn (pronounced co-burn), and guess what! DEE's driving us THERE. OMG, i think we're all going to get killed or something on the way there. HAAHHA, but oh well, she's got her p's so she should be okay. nat says she a good driver. so... damn. no accidents. ): hahahah.
hmmm, 4 days till i go home! 4 days of nothing but play. hahahahha. well and heaps of packing up as well. there's like so much to do.
thursday (today) - iceskating and surf sale
friday - clear junk in room and return books and watch glass slipper (some korean drama)
sat - pack EVERYTHING
sun - go to church and stay overnight at esther's
mon - go to airport and reach home and then go for carolling practice.
(:
okay got other better things to do than blog.
shall blog when i get home (:
see you in 4 days people! haha
a shout of praise.
7:53 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006: freedom~
EXAMS ARE OVER! :D
finally. (:
no more school.
forever and ever.
WAHAHAHAHHAH~
(except 5 years of uni.
damn, what a spoiler)
a shout of praise.
10:36 PM
